Sunday, July 29, 2012
Monday, July 9, 2012
Well it's been an interesting couple of weeks ...Work has been uneventful and home has been serene, for the most part. My romantic life on the other hand has been a roller coaster. Clay has expressed that he loves me and wants to marry me.. and for a while I have been hesitant. He drinks a lot and when he does he becomes another person.... This scares me for a lot of reasons... I have children and well.. that is not the environment I want them to grow up in; I don't have the patience to deal with someone constantly being intoxicated. But I do love him.. and when we are together things are wonderful.. he is caring ... attentive and generous. Lately ... this has diminished .. he doesn't answer my texts .. or call me like he used to. When we actually get time together he still treats me like I am the only woman in the world.. but only when we are together... sooo my female intuition and the years of people watching made me want to dig a little and of course.. I was right... there was another woman. I confronted him and he admitted that there was someone .. but tat she is his mothers nurse... He can't afford a home health aid at 18.00 an hour and this girl likes him.. so she is either cheap or free. He says he is leading her on but that nothing physical has happened. As much as I want to believe this.. I know it isn't true...female intuition again... So I am left trying to balance my love for him with a dose of reality... I know better.. really I do!! I just really want to give him the benefit of the doubt... I guess I am just trying to hang on to something that may not be mine to have.. in hopes that someone in my life could possibly be honest and loyal... Yes.. I am a fool.
Friday, June 29, 2012
Well wouldn't you know it.. I checked the CSE website today and they actually sent Jack a letter. It was a reminder that he hadn't paid his child support in 45 days and that he had 14 days to pay it .. it's been much longer.. and this was only the first of three reminders .. but hey, it;s more than what's been done so far. I could really use the money right now.. I doubt he will pay any of it.. but we will see.
Thursday, June 28, 2012
It's been 4 days of extra B12 a multivitamin and my regular dose of CLA ..which is typically for weight loss but helps my joint pain immensely. Not quite sure if it is pure will power or if the supplements are actually helping but I do feel a bit better than I have the past two weeks.
On another note.. it's been 4 months since Jack has paid child support. The Florida Child Support Enforcement Agency (CSE) is living up to it's horrible reputation. A judge denied Jacks petition for a paternity test back in December; in March I received an appointment notice for genetic testing. Confused, I called child support and they told me to call the Clerk of Court, which I did, only to be told to go to my local CSE office with the letter to work it out. I did.. and no one could tell me why I received this letter because they had no record of it. Must have been a mistake...They made a note in my file and told me not to worry about the appointment.. In May I received yet another appointment letter saying that they had rescheduled my appointment. Again I called CSE and the Clerk of Court.. both saying it was the other agencies responsibility to fix it... but that this time, even though te Clerk of Court had no record of a judges order for testing, there was indeed an appointment in the CSE database and I had neglected to make the first one... Also letting me know that they would not begin enforcement actions until the results came back. Needless to say, I was more than a little frustrated. But a prepared myself to miss yet another day of work just to get it over with. Two days before the appointment I faxed the local CSE office administrator and explained both the situation and my frustration (there is no local phone number available).. She called me the next morning apologizing and assuring me that I did not have to go to the appointment.. also assuring me that she had made 2 notes and called the testing facility to cancel, and that she had no idea why someone told me they would not pursue the child support until the testing was completed because it simply wasn't true .. Well I wish I could say that they at least sent im a letter that day.. but they haven't.. I called yesterday and the worker seemed baffled at the fact that there had been no action taken since April .. but assured me .. YET AGAIN.. that she would put a note in my file for the local office to pursue... Something tells me that before my munchkin is 10 they will run out of room to post notes... Maybe then they will actually look at my file.. if for nothing else but to purge it and begin again.....We shall see..
On another note.. it's been 4 months since Jack has paid child support. The Florida Child Support Enforcement Agency (CSE) is living up to it's horrible reputation. A judge denied Jacks petition for a paternity test back in December; in March I received an appointment notice for genetic testing. Confused, I called child support and they told me to call the Clerk of Court, which I did, only to be told to go to my local CSE office with the letter to work it out. I did.. and no one could tell me why I received this letter because they had no record of it. Must have been a mistake...They made a note in my file and told me not to worry about the appointment.. In May I received yet another appointment letter saying that they had rescheduled my appointment. Again I called CSE and the Clerk of Court.. both saying it was the other agencies responsibility to fix it... but that this time, even though te Clerk of Court had no record of a judges order for testing, there was indeed an appointment in the CSE database and I had neglected to make the first one... Also letting me know that they would not begin enforcement actions until the results came back. Needless to say, I was more than a little frustrated. But a prepared myself to miss yet another day of work just to get it over with. Two days before the appointment I faxed the local CSE office administrator and explained both the situation and my frustration (there is no local phone number available).. She called me the next morning apologizing and assuring me that I did not have to go to the appointment.. also assuring me that she had made 2 notes and called the testing facility to cancel, and that she had no idea why someone told me they would not pursue the child support until the testing was completed because it simply wasn't true .. Well I wish I could say that they at least sent im a letter that day.. but they haven't.. I called yesterday and the worker seemed baffled at the fact that there had been no action taken since April .. but assured me .. YET AGAIN.. that she would put a note in my file for the local office to pursue... Something tells me that before my munchkin is 10 they will run out of room to post notes... Maybe then they will actually look at my file.. if for nothing else but to purge it and begin again.....We shall see..
Sunday, June 24, 2012
So.. it's Sunday morning and the house is quiet (for now).. The kids are still asleep and I am enjoying a cup of coffee and a few minutes of solitude... I keep thinking back to yesterdays post.. then further back to the past couple of weeks. I have been feeling especially moody for at least that long. I find myself wanting to be alone most of the time. The thought of being around anyone but my children makes me anxious.
I have a good life... beautiful children who love me.. a decent job..good friends; so I can't quite understand why I am feeling this way. Whatever it is.. I hate it and I am determined to shake it! But how do you fight something you can't see... something you don't know the origin of? Vitamins.. herbs.. determination.. or do I give in and opt for technology and man made drugs? I do not like prescription drugs.. never have. They tend to mask real issues and more often than not, the side effects are worse than the condition they are prescribed for.... so I will try determination and some supplements for now. I should be happily enjoying all of the amazing things that life has provided me... not wanting to hide away from them. Let's see where this takes me..
I have a good life... beautiful children who love me.. a decent job..good friends; so I can't quite understand why I am feeling this way. Whatever it is.. I hate it and I am determined to shake it! But how do you fight something you can't see... something you don't know the origin of? Vitamins.. herbs.. determination.. or do I give in and opt for technology and man made drugs? I do not like prescription drugs.. never have. They tend to mask real issues and more often than not, the side effects are worse than the condition they are prescribed for.... so I will try determination and some supplements for now. I should be happily enjoying all of the amazing things that life has provided me... not wanting to hide away from them. Let's see where this takes me..
Saturday, June 23, 2012
Moody today
Enjoying a quiet Saturday after a stressful week.. I have been a bit moody lately; hopefully some quiet time will help.. Clay may stop by for a bit, and Alli's little sister and her friend will be visiting as well.. I am really not in te mood to socialize but I suppose I can manage for a few hours.
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