Horrible week

So things are horrible at work.. The president(KR) of the company wants to lay off at least 7 people and I am pretty sure I will have to lay Carol off.
I love my job.. but I really dislike having to be the bearer of bad news. I like Carol.. she's funny, sweet.. a bit of a busy body.. and well, to be honest not the most productive employee here... but she makes the workday interesting.

I also heard through the grapevine that they are thinking of laying off someone in management.. That would be me or Ruth... Knowing this I have decided to write up a letter to KR pointing out all of my strong points... and why I would be the better choice to keep on should it come to that. A resume of sorts.
It bothers me more than a bit to do it because I really like Ruth a lot. She is a great person.. always trying to feed me.. and she adores my little angel.
I feel like I'm "throwing her under the bus" .. you know what I mean? I haven't put her down at all in the letter.. but pointing out why I would be the better choice is well .. not exactly the nicest way to keep a job... or a friend.
I don't fault the company at all for deciding to cut management.. hell I would have done it a year ago... It just makes sense.
Anyway I hope I am doing the right thing..


My personal life is not going much better. I swear I have no idea how to do this whole relationship thing.. I have no clue what Jack wants! Every time I think we are making progress he says something stupid.. or wont talk to me.

This week he is doing this " I'll do whatever you want" thing. It's driving me insane... Now I know in theory it sounds great! Every woman wants a man to cater to her every whim .. right?

Not this way.. He takes it to the most extreme level you can imagine.. I ask if he is busy or can talk on the phone "whatever you wish".. I ask if he would like me to call him back because he is obviously busy or distracted "whatever you want" .. He comes to visit me and Joaquin (his son) but only after I say these exact words "Jack come up and visit".. If I ask him if he would like to visit I get no response..

Today was the worst.. He actually asked me what he was saying wrong and what I wanted him to say..

I know he is trying to manipulate me.. I know better than to play these games.. I can't win them.. he's been doing it for so long he is a pro at it... I even know why he's doing it.. You see he cannot compromise .. it's either his way or my way.. there is no middle ground.. He said to me once.. "you want to make me happy? Shut up and do what I say".. I think there might have been an expletive in there somewhere.. but you get the point.. I was speechless.. but found just enough voice to let out a laugh before hanging up the phone.. Only problem is I picked up the phone when he called back later that night.. and I keep picking up the phone.


So again... why do I stay.. Still trying to figure that one out... if anyone has an idea.. I'm all ears.. or.. umm.. eyes ;)
Stressful week.. and it's only Wednesday!